POISONED BY MY PROMISES.. HIM

I promised to love and take care of you…

Promised to make your world a better place 

Provide a home for you 

Make you my family and protect you from the world….

Life had other plans,

But I had to keep my promise.

Money not coming in as I hoped it would,

But I had to keep  my promise. 

Living beyond my means to give you and the kids the home you deserve..

Then the debts started coming in… Loans and overdrafts but still….

I had to keep my promises…

I couldn’t look you in the eyes and realize I’d failed you…

This isn’t what I meant when I promised to love you…

Now all I see is my failure…..

I dunno when it happened you know, the poison…

Working all day, all week with no money to show for it…

Sleeplessness, restlessness, sudden illnesses and emergencies..

Slowly climbing thru my veins and making its way to my heart…

I didn’t realize when I started projecting my anger on you my love..

Didn’t notice when I started hitting kids…

The very people I love…. the reason for my hustle!

The day you left me outside…

The day I hit my son for that little mistake …

The day I saw the hurt in your eyes my love, and fear in that of my young ones….

That is the day it finally reached my heart…

All I ever wanted was to fulfill my promise and give you the best….

But here I am, fading away…..

Poisoned by my promises…..

I LOVE YOU TOO…. HER

I remember how our story begun…. somewhere 1980’s

Area cassanova you were… young, handsome, hardworking, with a reputation..

The appearance of a lion and the heart of a dolphin..

Most eligible bachelor you were…

Love was our story…. just the beginning of it.

You looked like a bright future for me and our future kids…

Being with you was the only option, You and everything you came with….

Your love , your promises, and some baggage….

I saw how you immediately set to work ,once I said Yes, to bring the world to my feet..

Six kids down the line and you keep slipping…

I see the stress eating at you,

I feel your restlessness at night…

I see you dying away just so you can make our family happy….

oh baby!, how silly of you to forget… I LOVE YOU TOO…

I chose to be yours, but you are mine too…

How quick of you to forget about me… so fixed on providing for us, for a better future..

My love, this is our future!

You, me and the kids.

I see life beat the light out of you and you won’t even let me help…..

This is our battle, this is us.

Allow me help you take care of us by taking care of you…

Don’t just love me, LET ME LOVE YOU TOO…

Hear me when I say….. I LOVE YOU TOO!

We’re in this together…

Your goal is my goal

Your pain is my pain

Your happiness is my peace…

And when you snore at night, then I can sleep soundly for that can only mean that you’re really asleep.

Your promises are no longer yours to fulfill alone but Ours…

Grey hair for grey hair…

Till death do us part…

Hear hear….

I LOVE YOU TOO!

yarh