Today, everything feels bad and nothing seems right…

I’m not alone but I don’t want to speak to anyone….

Today, the regrets seem to be more… and it’s not even about my salvation.

The future…. with its uncertainties…

Brooding over lost time and yet still quite sure I won’t do anything about it..

No need for listening ears or supporting shoulders…

No need for an audience… not another pity party!

Today, I don’t feel like living again…

Thinking of ways to escape the future that seems certainly gloomy because of my inactions…

Today, I realise I’m a hypocrite because I can’t face the consequences of my actions…

I’d be more confident if I’d done more,

Postponing and procrastinating…. hoping for another way out of this mess.

Today, I don’t feel like laughing again, I don’t feel like loving…

Today the sun doesn’t feel warm and the flowers look dead.

Who can understand self-inflicted failure?

“You reap what you sow” is all I can hear…. where is my redemption?

Trying to hold on to God, to hope….. but then I feel like I failed You too.

Today, life is not here….. time is far gone…

Where are You?

the dark nights..

Right here!!!

Oh you poor soul! crushing under the weight of all that gloom…

Today, the night is friendly and everything feels right.

The company is appreciated and the conversation heartwarming.

Today, I’m confident that in spite of the uncertainties, everything will be alright.

Today, I refuse to think of all the things I could’ve done better….

Today, I’m focusing on all that I can do for a better tomorrow…

The regrets of yesterday are but only a background music to my dance of focus..

Today, I want to live, break free and fly..

Today, because of Him, I can face tomorrow.

With no works of pride to fall on, I look to Him.

Today, I’m ready for the future and working on getting there.

The dead season is past and gone…

Today, I’m sowing into the new season…

He whispered into my ears, “how could you ever fail me?”…

Today, faith is here, hope is here,love is here…. Life is here.

Today is a better day.

You will rise again…

Though sorrows may last for the night…

Remember, the sun will always rise again…

a better day…

xoxo,
Yarh.